mary

2010-07-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

Make me smile
Make me laugh
Touch me
Give me the feel that I have lost
Lead me the way
Breathe me
You are the reason
Let’s dance.

2010-06-20T21:01:00.002+08:00

Missing a lot of things in life.
Missing my dad the most.
Nothing yet to come.
God knows the outcome.
Shall I be strong than the stronger.

2010-06-08T15:57:00.000+08:00

2010-06-06T13:00:00.000+08:00

PLEASE!

2010-05-26T13:56:00.001+08:00

I am not craving
Fufilling my stomach obligations.

2010-05-23T14:29:00.002+08:00

Flying high up into the sky
Flapping my magnificent wings
And soar into a new dimension realm
O what a beautiful dream.

Greatest of all, than the world below
I am not lost in my directions
This is the best you could ever imagined
If I wake up, will it be the same again?

-mary.

2010-05-22T17:08:00.001+08:00

My love for you is infinity.

Happy 22nd.

2010-05-21T15:28:00.000+08:00

2010-05-18T18:36:00.001+08:00

The crime the violent that set me in fire
I will destroy you in the name of my father
I am a young girl, thirty-three
A killer I say
A secret that shall be

They took me in
Impostor I am
A goddess sanely soul
Burning rage burns my skin
I am killing you my brother
Fuck you if you’re my kin

I really love my daddy
But you take him away
The blood running on my veins
I’m going to kill you, kill you
Stab you in the heart, Sister Lily
For telling me in

I’m using you my sister
My one and only child bitter
I’m getting daddy
But he don’t loves me either
And I’m killing him too.

PsychoEsther
Mary.

2010-05-15T23:51:00.002+08:00

2010-05-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

ad was here visiting me hours ago.
We ended up watching iron man2 movie online.
Special fries, syrup, strawberries(my uncle stole two pieces.),
merci,pudding milk tea.
And i showed ad my restaurant city.(i know it was pathethic)
Conversation and More conversation.
Then kissed and bid goodbye.

Thanks for coming over sweety.
<3

2010-05-14T16:03:00.002+08:00

With one closed eye
Everything went black
The blood,the veins no longer has it back.

The nasty feeling
Left me the tears of heavy sack.

The waiting, the wondering has parted
Now the sun shine so bright
And it is ready for me to get started.

The mourn,the pain
That left me so stale
You got to believe this
I told her i need coke
For my sister and me.

2010-05-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

Major issues done!
Thanks girls for those sweet messages.
Thanks ad,annie and arithz for coming.
I appreciate it alot.
Im already eating the merci.

I really feel very bored lying down on the bed.
Can't do any much of walk either.
I feel really hungry.
I want Macdonald!

Seriously i hate surgery and needles!!

I can't wait for the cast to be open.
I hate staying at home.
I want fresh air and start working.

Ad you were really sweet.
I love you.

2010-05-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

Che,Che,Che,Che,Che
Cherie Bum!

2010-05-10T23:02:00.002+08:00

i am missing you.
<3

2010-05-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

2010-05-10T22:53:00.003+08:00

i am prepared.
no i am not.
i am pretending.
no i am not.
yes i am.
stop it!

I am confused with my own personality.
i am angry
no i am not
i am sad
no
i don't know!

What's up with me and love stories??

It goes Awwwwww, chuckled at myself and then cry.
Tissues, i need them to blow my nose.

and still watching it.

You are the exception and i am the rule.

2010-03-20T14:44:00.000+08:00

So what's next now?

2010-03-17T12:23:00.000+08:00

Adlan has been calling me almost every day at 5am just to tell me that he is hot and he can’t sleep.
So he needs to put his sideburn backwards and I don’t know how he controls the rest of his hair.
While I, picking up the phone mumbling and today I told ad I was damn hungry at bloody 5 am.
Surprisingly ad is hungry too.
Damn cute!

2010-03-16T12:02:00.000+08:00

I am missing you so much dad!

2010-03-15T11:04:00.001+08:00

It was a fucking Sunday morning seriously.
I was at the bus stop and waiting for the bus but none arrived!
Suddenly I heard a woman was saying,” Yeah there are no buses! Halleluiah!
Then I looked at my watch it was damn 9 am when I have to reach city hall by 9.30 am.
I live at Pasir Ris mind you.
I was damn fucking frustrated so I walk to the interchange, it was quite a distance and it was damn scorching hot! The reason because there were road closure due to some fucking marathon!
I was damn pissed! In the end I were late tho!

Anyway ad makes my day because I was disturbing him the whole day till he gets irritated!
Yahoo!
I love you sweetheart<3

2010-03-13T12:48:00.000+08:00

Girlfriends when are we meeting again?
i miss you girls!

2010-03-13T12:41:00.000+08:00

Fadya make it happen.I can't wait!

2010-03-13T12:26:00.002+08:00

I am feeling damn fucking lethargic.
Any moment, I can just fucking shout.
Fuck my period.
Ok I need to find my inner peace now.
And Ad I am so will be naughty to you.

Beware!

2010-03-11T13:48:00.001+08:00

Went to watch Alice in wonderland 3D yesterday.

I love it.<3<3

oooh Johnny....

2010-03-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

Greed is failing you.

Bear that.

2010-03-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

Life is clueless aren' t they?
Look up at the sky all you can see i clouds.
Look down and all you can see is your shadow,looking back at you.
Look at your sides and all you can see are tress and buildings.
Look all around you and what you have are humans with a confused mind.
The road no longer has the sign.
The rich they unite.
The poor they fall.
Mother Nature have always been beautiful.
But where have humanity gone too?
You are clueless too.

2010-03-08T12:55:00.000+08:00

Four years and i am still loving you now and ever.

2010-01-27T13:58:00.003+08:00

I am going to meet adlan at 2 pm today, but please look at the time now.
When i call him,he is still sleeping.Great!
He is laughing at me and i am going to frown to the ground!

Bluek Adlan!

2010-01-26T16:02:00.001+08:00

I am lost in my own path.
Too many decisions to make.
Thinking does not help.

I need beer.

2010-01-22T10:47:00.002+08:00

Morning...Still drooling and with half-opned eyes.
The weather is uncontrollably nice but i still have no idea why i'm up now and here blogging.
I should be closing my eyes and let my beautiful dreams flows.
Gosh i feel like having a hot chocolate with marshmallows from Gloria's Jeans.
Guess i shall demand myself to go to sleep now.
And they called. (crossing finger)
Going to get ready later for this evening.
Crackerjack at Home Club.

See you!

2010-01-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

You're so fake, Barbie is jealous.

2010-01-16T14:48:00.001+08:00

I miss having the real feeling of a smoke coming out from my mouth.

2010-01-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

Friendship turned and spoke to me: 'Always I'll be there;
Never mind the fretting or the woes, Nay, tell! - be you in the doldrums, deep of Hell,
Or any other dire straights my friend,
For you, I stood here ever at your side
From distant time to now, the bitter end.'

Mark S.

2010-01-10T11:15:00.001+08:00

Rise and Shine Adlan.

Big Hugs!

2010-01-10T10:43:00.005+08:00

2010-01-10T10:24:00.001+08:00

I have to wake up early in the morning just because my mum cook breakfast and she was like,
“MAISAH BANGUN!!!” I hate it when she does that.

Yes, I have eaten breakfast.

I will be starting work at 6pm today. Pathetic!

Can I take a scissors and cut my ulcer on my lips? Please?

I can’t hold it any longer.

My skin on the lips is tearing away.

I hate lip balm!

I really am having huge downpour mucus!

Yellowish phlegm from my throat… (Eeewww)

Cough as hard as I can.

I did not take my medicine as per instruction.

I can’t be bothered.

No wonder I am not yet heal.

2010-01-09T22:38:00.004+08:00

I'm sick of having ulcer.

Please,please go away and never come back again!

Ad,i'm missing you.

2010-01-04T14:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 20th BABY!

Tropical London

2010-01-02T23:53:00.001+08:00

2010-01-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

Awesome night with the CJ!
Happy 2010!

My Ladies,
Hugs and more Hugs!
Happy New Year!
Meet Up Soon <3<3

2009-12-19T11:42:00.001+08:00

Adlan....

I miss you.

2009-12-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

2009-12-14T12:52:00.002+08:00

Birds may cease to spread their wings
But it don't matter, but it don't matter
Winters may envelop spring
But it don't matter,but it don't matter

Cause when i'm with you
My whole world stands stills
You're my one and only thrill

Ships may never leave the dock
But it don't matter,but it don't matter
Ticks may never hear a tock
But it don't matter, but it don't matter

Cause when i'm with you
My whole world stands stills
You're my one and only thrill

Shores may never reach the tide
But it don't matter, but it don't matter
Buds may never open wide
But it don't matter.but it don't matter

Cause when i'm with you
My whole world stand stills
You're my one and only thrill

You're my ,you're my
You're my one and only thrill

-melody gardot

Moments in Paris

2009-12-13T16:19:00.005+08:00

End of Story.

PAPARAZZI

2009-11-30T00:49:00.000+08:00

2009-11-23T21:52:00.007+08:00

I want PINK MARTINI !!!!!

2009-11-22T17:15:00.001+08:00

TAA--DAH!

2009-11-21T21:22:00.006+08:00

I will follow you in any cause

I will fight for you in any wars

I'm proud to say that i am yours.

On a sidenote,

Window Vista is a BITCH!

Im fucking pissed!

And Barbie was utterly Ugly!

2009-11-20T18:24:00.004+08:00

Pains shatters me.

Because of you I am still living very strong and still.

2009-11-20T13:18:00.000+08:00

He says he loves me for my beauty
He says he loves me for my soul
He says I am such a looney
Holding my hands tightly and he says,
Baby don’t ever let me go.

Now we are in his apartment
Spinning me round like a running clock
We stop and freeze for that moment
Oh blooming romance
And we are locked.

2009-11-19T09:37:00.003+08:00

I am so looking forward to my manicure sessions.

Girlfriends join me!

2009-11-17T11:27:00.003+08:00

If you can summon the strength, tow me

I can't hold down the urgency

You've got to make your decent slowly

And oil up those sticky keys

Coax me out, my love

And have a spin of my propeller

It's a necessary evil

No cause for emergency

Borrow the beak of a bald eagle

Oh, momentary synergy

Coax me out, my love

Sink into tomorrow

Coax me out, my love

And have a spin of my propeller

My propeller won't spin and I can't get it started on my own

When are you arriving?

My propeller won't spin and I can't get it started on my own

When are you arriving?

My propeller won't spin and I can't get it started on my own

When are you arriving?

My propeller

-Alex.T

2009-11-17T11:14:00.000+08:00

I fell asleep in the time zone. I feel my body floating in the chilly air.
Still closing my dreadful sleepy eyes. Then there is a voice, very deep .
It is a man. He whispers,” Open your eyes beautiful.”
I am still closing my eyes real hard as I thought it was a dream.
Still figuring the man’s voice and the dream.
But somehow, I feel this is very real.
The same voice was humming to a very sweet melody while stroking my long hair.
His breath is getting closer to my ear. There is a warm sensation to it.
He whispers, “I love you.”
He give a kiss on my forehead.
Without hesistation, I open my eyes. It was Ad in his late thirties. Still wearing tight clothes,skinny jeans but he looks more like a real man than he usually does.
I was 11 years younger than him.
I give him a hug and a kiss. I hold his hand tightly.
In few minutes, I was gone.

Anyway I am just pretending I could time travel to my future.
I miss you Ad.

2009-11-04T13:22:00.000+08:00

I am your poison
You are my antidote.

Mary.

2009-10-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

I let you go
I set you free
And I saw the tears in your eyes
Without you looking back at me

I am feeling guilty all the time
Till today I am still thinking
Feeling very sober
Come back to me and I will kiss you

2009-10-25T00:07:00.002+08:00

I am so in love with Macdonald's!

Yeah they are having conjunction with the monopoly!

I can win lots of Macdonald's prizes!

First,it was apple pie.

Second, it was 6pieces chicken mcnuggets.

Yahoo!

2009-10-24T11:17:00.004+08:00

I am feeling damn shagged.

I can't take this anymore.

My bones are very fragile.

Mouth ulcers getting damn big.

Piles and piles of problem overloading my brain.

Even The Simpsons are not giving me any chance, they are fucking suicidal.

I been cursing and swearing for 24 hours.

Mood swings and i can just rip anybody off from their body.

My eyes are getting heavy.It feels like there is a magical stone sitting on it.

My hair are getting longer, i just want to take that bloody scissors and cut it off. BUT NEVER!

I am running out of clothes! Government please spare me some money!!

I hate my work! I hate my work!

Again

How i wish my life is like the beautiful rainbows.

How i wish my life is like princesses living in a castle.

How i wish my life is like a bird,freedom as can be.

How i wish my life is like a garden of all roses,with very calm serenity.

How i wish my life is like being a millionaire but without working at all.

Again

Despite being in my own imaginary world, i am thankful and glad to have everyone that i love in my reality world.

Again

Even though, i love to live in my own imaginary world, you are forever my real love.

I love you ad.

2009-10-23T00:27:00.003+08:00

Happy 22nd!

Tralalalalalalaala Tralalalalalala.....

2009-10-21T10:44:00.003+08:00

My paths are getting haywire day by day.

I am feeling lost and confused without a say.

Searching for reality but i am not even there yet.

Is it a happy ending?

2009-10-17T00:33:00.003+08:00

Sweet dreams and Beautiful nightmare.

Thanks to my favorite friend, ima-lala.

Good night.

2009-10-12T21:41:00.003+08:00

Lots of thinking leads to imaginations which leads to dreams.

It is very close, very near, very very surreal.

2009-10-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

500 days of summer..funny and a lot of emotions going through my body.

I love you adlan.

Seriously a bunch of pussies does not impress me at all.

2009-09-29T00:15:00.001+08:00

GAMER ,you linger around my soul. SURROGATES you next!

Thanks Ad,enjoy the day with you. :)

2009-09-27T15:38:00.002+08:00

A very major pain struck into the body, soul, spirit and the mind.
It was gruesome, leaving me half-dead.
Till now, it still lingering on the body.

F1! F1! F1! Lindsay Lohan was a hit. Oh come on miss, bring some cash next time!

Then there was GWEN STEFANIE!!! Too bad i was not there!
Myra how could you just stand there and let her pass??!!

Then there were the Backstreets Boys.

Alright enough of it, i am feeling totally sick.
I miss your warmth hugs Adlan.

OK I watched WUJUD2.
It was kind of short video but it was scary.
I have no idea why my heartbeat was thumping loudly and i feel like crying any moment.
Gosh i would never ever ever get involved in that kind of show,not even for sparkling cash.

2009-09-22T22:22:00.001+08:00

God give me a life to live.
God has his reason to make my life like this.
And whatever the reason is,
My love for you will never change till the day i stop to breathe.

2009-09-21T20:02:00.005+08:00

Continuation of 2nd day...

2009-09-21T00:27:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

mum you are the best cook ever in the whole wide world!

2009-09-19T19:45:00.003+08:00

I really hate when this day,this moment have to come.
Nothing can control my emotion now.

I love you dad.

2009-09-18T14:13:00.003+08:00

Period+Housekeeping+Tired+Complains= MAD LIKE FUCK!
AAaarggh! At last i am done with housekeeping.
I want to eat now,my tummy making awful music.

Miss ad.

2009-09-18T12:08:00.002+08:00

I was lazing around thinking aboout the past.

Nothing excites me.

Bringing me back to memories of sadness.

Forgetting everything is not easy.

When i start crying,it will never stop like a flowing river.

Throw it all and make it drown deep in the sea.

My beautiful dreams can never be a reality.

As I am a girl with endless imagination.

2009-09-17T12:38:00.002+08:00

Oh come on,you make me sick.

2009-09-14T17:28:00.006+08:00

I love you Adlan.

10 September 2009
Another special day.

2009-09-14T17:12:00.004+08:00

9 September 2009

I would like to thanks my babies for this gathering.
Thanks babies for the beautiful present and delicious cakes.
More outings coming up…
I love you girls.

2009-09-05T00:13:00.000+08:00

4th September

Celebrating with a very deepest emotions
I miss you dad.
I miss my Missy.
I miss my home.

Thanks to my girlfriends for the wishes.

Thanks for the Guess wallet colleagues. You guys really know that I keep complaining about getting a new wallet and now I got one from you guys.

And ad seriously, I won’t tell the whole world what u just did.
But thanks again lovely. Thousand of kisses!

2009-09-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

Wash it away, wash it away.
Is this how my life should be?

2009-08-26T01:29:00.000+08:00

Intruders, you are fools.
Look you don’t rule
Stop pretending
You think you got his back
Wake up boys and girls
You humans love to act.

2009-08-23T00:54:00.000+08:00

Happy 22nd adlan!

Still growing beautifully.

2009-08-23T00:25:00.000+08:00

Fasting month here I come.
I can’t fast anyway. Pretty wasted tho.
I was at Junction 8 watching Crackerjack and The Rejecks performing.
Hari Raya coming up next
I don’t really feel like celebrating
The atmosphere will be different without my dad around
I miss him so much.
I may not have any confidence in what I can do
Closing my eyes dragging my tears away
Here I am still living strongly on my fate
No one can able to be me
The woes of a woman losing her man
a wife losing her husband
a daughter losing her dad
Sacrificing every part of my bits for every one needs.
But I know I will make it one day to the top.
And dad I’m going to make you proud.
And mum you are going to be the first person I will share my happiness with.
I won’t grumble anymore.
As I know God is Fair.

2009-08-17T22:38:00.003+08:00

heh heh heh.

Not even our pms can break us apart.

2009-08-13T11:23:00.002+08:00

Gosh I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat I’m fat
I need to lose some weight lose some weight lose some weight lose some weight
This is infuriating infuriating infuriating infuriating very infuriating
I am marked by depressions when I see those numbers
I am changing my lifestyle now and I mean NOW!

I eat one piece of raisin bread for breakfast.
Do my morning household chores, washing clothes, clean the bed and sweep the floor.
I jog for 5 minutes.
Sit-ups for 70 counts
Push-ups girl style for 10 counts

THEN LIE FLAT DOWN TO THE FLOOR.
FEELING SO BREATHLESS
IT BEEN TWO YEARS SINCE I LAST SHAKE MY BONES REAL HARD.
NOW I’M DOTTED WITH MY SWEET SCENT OF SWEAT. HAHAHAHAHAHA
YEAH! I’M FEELING REAL GOOD BABY!

MY DIET PLAN
The Don’ts

No chocolates for a month.
No longer one plate of rice but cutting down to
half.
No eating starting from 8 pm onwards.
No sweet drinks except for
fruit juices.
Stay away from fried foods.

The Do’s

Eat lots of fruits.
Exercise, exercise and exercise.

2009-08-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

Pieces of her shattered away
Like a bottle of wine
You got her thinking from night to day
The sounds of the clock goes tick, tick a tock.
Not a minute stop.
It was so long ago
Since you said you love her so
Now you are leaving her without a goodbye
Sunset to sunrise she is feeling low and dry
On a very cold night
She trembled, feeling very disturbed
Dreadful winds blowing her lovely black hair
Bloody tears wets her radiant skin
And there your soul smiles at her from within
Looking after her from the other world
But she never knew.
She doesn’t know how to begin.
It’s killing her everyday.

2009-08-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

I miss us.
I love us.
I got the best us.

2009-08-08T02:19:00.000+08:00

A whore never feels complete without her vagina.
A man to man action is pretty much disgusting.
Fucking fat bastards are getting on my nerves.
Skinny bitches are just another irritating idiots.
Running kids are driving me to my grave.
Mats hanging around at Topman.
Minahs are just trash to the mall.
No customer equals to plenty of food to eat.
Nagging supervisor.
Another old and nagging manager.
Big boss fucking Caucasian desperado.
Cigarettes running up fast
End of the day you just want to rush back home and knock out.
Raffles City Moments.

2009-07-19T11:18:00.004+08:00

Bonjour!
Well slept at four in the morning, wake up ten thirty in the morning.
I ruined my whole beautiful sleep watching some Malaysian drama.
Supposedly two person watching but it ended up me alone. Somehow the show was quite interesting,
It is a love story. For sure I did not cry alright adlan.

Anyway I own a hello kitty hand phone. It is cute. Well as you know it is a China phone.
The function is quite alright, almost the same as the Nokia function.
It quite weird because you can put two sim card.
It seems everything is fine it just that when I make a call it’s kind of echoish.
Well I just have to adapt to that new hello kitty phone.
It cost me money alright.

Pardon my morning language.

Sick

2009-07-18T21:14:00.001+08:00

I am back and still alive. So this is how it goes, I was dread sick. I mean I was really Sick! It was a half alive and half dead situation for me. My temp rises to 37.9C, my stomach feels hurt. It was like needles poking through my skin. Well could it be a curse? For sure it is not H1N1. I was all alone with no medication at all. I have to bear the fucking pain till the next day. So the whole night the room was filled with my cries. Groaning and mourning in pain. Thank God there was my mum and sister.

So I went to the clinic the next day with my sister. I was very weak so we took taxi to and fro. The most fucking part was when I reached the place the clinic was already filled up with sick people. I was sitting there with my face half dead, waiting and waiting. I was so angry, my pain was unbearable and still I have to wait! That point of time I feel like ripping somebody off their body, take a knife and cut my stomach so all the unwanted pains could go away. It took an hour for my turn to be called. The doctor told me that I have stomach flu. She asked me whether I want a jab or tablets. Of course I would not choose something to do with needles. But she suggested me to take the jab because it will be much better. I told the doctor, I will just go with it as long the pain will go away. Fucking cow! The jab was fucking pain! Not the needles but the fucking medicine that diluted into my body. I shouted and almost wanted to cry.

The medicine and the jab made me drowsy and I slept almost the whole day. Thank god the pain was gone. I am much better now. It’s only my head that giving me problems, its keep spinning tho. My arm still feels very pain and aching from the jab. Hate it when all this have to happen!

I am still on medication and hope I will recover soon.

2009-07-15T14:43:00.002+08:00

I wish…
I wish…
I wish…
I wish…
I wish…

I am in my own galaxy.

2009-07-08T11:02:00.003+08:00

Wrapped with a blanket
Rolling on the bed
Rolled and rolled
Till our two eyes met
Your body touches mine
As we kissed insanely
A beautiful love of you and me
You are the fire and I am the sea
Two different worlds that set us free
Tortured by day, Sleepless by night
Nothing to be said
Nothing undone

2009-07-02T00:06:00.006+08:00

I LOVE ADLAN.
I LOVE ADLAN.
I LOVE ADLAN

twist

2009-06-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

I hate staying up because it is Monday
And whats more its is a rainy day
Well going to though
And I am bored
Sitting here and talking like an immature kid
Just another entertainment
Another moments I have to live.
I miss my love.
A day without you
I surrender
I dried my eyes
Hold me tight
Lalalalalalalalalalalala
You the one I need right now
Ooh baby please be here.
Please be here.

2009-06-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

Period.Blood.Moments.Hatred.Annoyed.Sadness.Lethargic.Mundane.Sick.Emotions.
All this feelings is running through my body,soul,spirit,mind and the veins.
It seems the world will end soon and when will I wake up from my beautiful dreams.
Too many sins to redeem.
Dreams left unfulfilled.

Empty soul with a drunken mind.
Walking alone on the lonely street.
Looking up at the sky
Looking so sadly
Very sadly
With her thoughts running away.
Her pain living in a cruel world
No one knows No one cares
Living on those crumbs just make her day.

2009-06-22T00:28:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUSI SALLY!

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!

HAPPY 22ND TO DEAREST ADLAN!

Secret Weapon

2009-06-21T11:55:00.002+08:00

2009-06-19T02:42:00.002+08:00

My brain is not functioning. Spare me.

I need to sleep.

Adlan, my bedtime story?

2009-06-18T11:49:00.002+08:00

No appetite to eat your food,well learn from this gorgeous man.
Look at those mayonnaise.
Look at how he munch his french fries.
He is a happy man!
That makes me love him.

I LOVE YOU ADLAN!

P.S. sorry to post about you eating, you look damn cute.

Sick

2009-06-15T11:38:00.001+08:00

I have been feeling very sick these past few days. Down with a heavy flu. Been sleeping with lots and lots of tissues around me. I really hate the feeling of being sick especially getting a flu. It stinks! It may due to the hot whether I guess. Anyway my mum is so doubly sweet to buy me vitamins. She knows her daughter no longer have the energy and with the vitamins I can replenish my own energy. But in some way I still feel the same. Laugh!

Well lately I have been doing lots of thinking, missing my girlfriends, hate going to work, not taking good care of my diet, not been drinking plain water for the past few days.

Gosh I need to do something about it.

I love ADLAN!

La Nuit

2009-06-13T01:30:00.004+08:00

Rainbows+Sunshine+Roses+Heartbeats+Happiness+Love=Mary and Adlan are still dating!

CHEERS TO OUR LOVE!

DAMAGED

2009-06-12T10:31:00.001+08:00

When time leads to troubles.
When troubles leads to chaos.
When chaos leads to unhappiness.
When unhapppines leads to sadness.
Its just another useless tale of mine.

GOODBYE~

darkness

2009-06-10T12:53:00.001+08:00

Another day on a lonely streets
Crossing the roads with stangers looking at you
No direction
No paths
Where should I go?
Walking on and on
With hopeless dreams
A country at war
Pool of bloods stained the walkways
The deads lying around
It will never be undone
The kings are a fool
This is a place of doom
No warnings No signs
We all will die.

Love

2009-06-10T00:41:00.000+08:00

The beauty of the day
The silence of the night
Behind those happiness lies the loneliness
Reality turning to a useless dreams
Without knowing the time
U have gone far away from me
Tears leads to internal bleeding
The deepest pain I had to survive